Yesterday was kind of rough. It started out good enough. Corey and I went to Taste of Atlanta and had a really good time trying out some new foods and restaurants.
Here are some pictures . . .
So we had a good time, tasting food and walking around. Of course, we have more coupons and business cards for restaurants than we ever thought we could have.
Last night, however, was kind of rough. I feel kind of silly, but Corey went on another business trip and I did not handle it well. I’m not sure why this one hit me so hard. Corey goes out of town frequently for business. If I had a nickel for every time he went out of town in the four years we have been together, then I would be a very wealthy woman. For some reason, I felt particularly sad and very lonely about the fact that he was gone. And I did something I haven’t done in a long time. I used food to ease my pain. I binged.
Corey and I had gotten a package of sugar cookies at Taste of Atlanta, so I had quite a few cookies .
I did not get hungry until kind of late, but when I did I ordered a 20 piece order o spicy wings from Papa John’s. I did not take a picture because I was filled with shame. But I ate every single wing. I would have ordered a pizza, but I was afraid that the cheese would give me a migraine (as it has been known to do). I felt so guilty about my binge. I felt sick to my stomach from so much food and I felt like I had undone the past several months of healthy eating.
I had to remind myself that it’s important to forgive myself for these mistakes. I also know that yesterday’s binge is not going to cause me to gain back all the fifteen pounds I have lost so far. What I need to do is recognize why I felt the urge to eat and try to do other things to deal with my anxieties about being alone. I also know that today is a new day and I had the ability to get back on track as soon as possible. And I did . . .
Breakfast was a whole wheat bagel (fresh from the Farmer’s Market) with some Trader Joe’s pumpkin cream cheese. I may have to reevaluate my opinion of Trader Joe’s. This stuff is freaking awesome!
I had breakfast a little late because I woke up with no appetite. I’m sure that was due to last night’s overeating. So that was my whole breakfast and I did not get hungry until lunch.
Lunch was some leftover pasta from last week. I love leftovers! It was simple whole wheat pasta, 365 organic pasta sauce, and some cooked chicken breast.
Snack was unpictured pretzels with almond butter. This is quickly becoming my favorite go-to snack.
The day ended on an excellent note, much better than yesterday that’s for sure. After work, I picked up Callie from doggy day care and hurried home to go for a run. I wasn’t going to take Callie with me because I knew she would be exhausted from her day, but I kind of wanted some company on my walk since my husband usually accompanies us. It was really nice bonding time with her. We only jogged for about a mile because it looked like it might rain. I’m still working on the C25K program and easing back into the running thing and that was fine with me. When I got home, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical to end my workout. I really pushed myself on the elliptical and I felt great (if not a little sore).
Dinner was an awesome taco salad with homemade seasoning.
In this salad I had seasoned meat, spinach, cheese, tortilla chips, some salsa and my first ever guacamole attempt. I think the avocado I picked was a little over ripe, but it was still good. This is the first time I have ever picked out an avocado for myself. Does anyone have any tips for picking out a good avocado?
Now that I have eaten and exercised, I feel kind of like Callie.
I feel so much better than yesterday. I am back on track with my eating and I had a great workout. I am trying not to let yesterday get me down too much. I miss Corey like crazy, but I will feel worse if I let one day’s binge turn into five days. I feel proud of myself that I was able to get back on track so easily.