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Motivation

Tina at Carrots and Cake wrote an interesting post yesterday about books that were motivational to her in terms of healthy living and losing weight. That post got me thinking about the book that produced quite a few epiphanies for me.

Women, Food and God was a life-changing book for me. There were countless “a-ha” moments. When the author spoke about her experiences and her feelings about food, I felt like she was speaking about me. I could relate to her so much.

Now I think it is time to read that book for a second time (and maybe a couple of the books that Tina mentioned). The past couple of days have been rough for me. I have made some bad choices and I am trying to recover from a binge as I type this. I think I feel even guiltier for the binge because I am supposedly a healthy living blogger. I debated on whether to talk about this or not, but I want to be honest with you guys.

It seems like every single day is a struggle. I struggle to make the “right” choice with every single bite that goes into my mouth. Maybe that’s why I felt the urge to binge yesterday and tonight. I am just tired of the struggle. I am tired of fighting every day to be healthy and be active. So I gave in to my impulses because it’s the easier thing to do.

But every day is a day for new choices. I have to figure out a new way of coping and handling my urge to binge. Living a healthy lifestyle should not be this hard. Should it?

I think my first step is to go back to Geneen Roth’s guidelines to eating. These guidelines are good rules to follow and I can honestly say that I don’t follow any of them.

  • Eat when you are hungry.
  • Eat sitting down in a calm environment. This does not include the car.
  • Eat without distractions. Distractions include radio, television, newspapers, books, intense or anxiety-producing conversations or music.
  • Eat what your body wants.
  • Eat until you are satisfied.
  • Eat (with the intention of being) in full view of others.
  • Eat with enjoyment, gusto and pleasure.

Thanks for following along with me during this little ramble. I promise that tomorrow’s post will be somewhat cheerier. :)

Do you follow these guidelines on a regular basis? Is there any book that has motivated you in terms of healthy living and weight loss?

The power of the right size

This weekend I went clothes shopping. It was a long time coming because the only thing holding up my pants for the past couple of months has been a belt. Not to mention the fact that I have saved a couple of hundred dollars specifically for clothes over the past few months. And for some reason, I haven’t used any of it.

My jeans have been a size too big for a while now. But I have been waiting to get a pair of jeans in a smaller size. Waiting for my weight loss to accelerate so I could fit into an even smaller size. Waiting to see if I would gain all the weight back.

Holding onto those pants was like holding on to a security blanket. It was like holding onto these extra pounds I just can’t get rid of. Going to buy new pants was a bit scary. I was scared that I hadn’t actually gone down a size. I was scared that buying a new pair of pants was a sign that I was giving up on losing weight. What if I lost enough weight in the next few weeks so that I didn’t even need these pants? And wearing a pair of pants that actually fit means that if I gain some of my weight back I will know it. No more denial. That alone is a scary enough thought to deter me from shopping.

Then . . . I found them. A perfect pair of jeans. Not even just one pair, but two pair of jeans that fit perfectly.

I can’t tell you how refreshing it was to wear a pair of jeans that didn’t require a belt. And another unexpected side effect of wearing the correct size . . . my self-confidence shot up by about a thousand percent. No longer did I think of myself as fat. My jeans now accentuated my curves in a very flattering way. While in the fitting room, I couldn’t stop staring at my butt. :)

I had no idea that wearing the correct size would make me feel so good about myself. And honestly when I look at pictures of me wearing the bigger jeans, it’s like I lost ten pounds just by wearing the right size!

I am so glad that I finally made the journey to the store. I feel better about myself than I have in months. I even considered the fact that maybe I don’t need to lose weight. Maybe my curves are the way they are supposed to be. And maybe I am the size I am supposed to be.

Now I just need to buy some new work clothes. I only have one pair of work pants that fit me. Guess it wouldn’t hurt to be as confident as work as I am at home. :)

Question: Have you ever held onto clothes that were either too small or too big? For what reason?

Guilt

I have been trying all day to think of what I would write about. I don’t feel particularly happy or in a good mood. Yesterday was Internet-free day in our house and I felt liberated by the fact that I hardly took any pictures all day . . . of food anyway. I did take plenty of pictures of me, Corey and Callie in the park.

But there is one thing that has been on my mind all day. Corey and I have plans for a date night tonight. Since both of us have the next couple of days off work, it’s kind of nice (and a little luxurious) to have a date night in the middle of the week. We are going to one of our favorite places, Farm Burger. The burgers are made of grass-fed beef and every single ingredient is local and organic. The burgers are the best burgers I have ever had. Ever. I can really tell the difference in taste by eating all natural and local ingredients.

The problem that I have is guilt. All day long I have been feeling guilty for the fact that I will be eating a hamburger and onion rings and I have no idea how many calories are in them. I can’t seem to shake off this guilt or the feeling that I will gain ten pounds from the meal. Logically, I know that’s not possible. I know that it’s still possible for me to lose weight this week despite eating this meal. But I keep thinking about all the ways this meal could hurt me and my efforts to lose weight. I even contemplated restricting my calories for the rest of the day. I won’t. I know that not eating enough will make me want to eat even more tonight.

I am letting my guilt ruin my excitement over eating a wonderful meal and spending time with my husband. How do I get rid of this guilt? I am trying to talk myself out of this guilt, but that is much easier said than done.

It’s probably because my weight loss is progressing so slowly. So slowly that I am afraid to eat anything I like because it may jeopardize my efforts. But I feel the effects of my workouts. I actually have a little bit of definition in my biceps now. I see muscle for the first time in a long time. My abs, triceps, quads and thighs are sore from yesterday’s Jillian Michaels workout. Those are good things. Regardless of what pants size I am currently wearing, I know that I am getting stronger.

I know this post has been a bit of a ramble. I appreciate you guys for hanging in there with me. I feel better just by venting. I love the support that the blogging community provides. :)

And now I am going to end this post on an upbeat note: some pictures of me and my little family at the park yesterday. I love this weather!

Playing Fetch!

Taking a break from playing for some petting time

Accountability

I haven’t blogged for a while and there are a couple of reasons. My work has been extremely busy and there are certain days where I just don’t feel like blogging after a long day of counseling people. Also, I have been a bit slack in my eating habits . . . and my exercise ones as well.

I have a feeling it has to do with the fact that I am not using the scale anymore. Last time I stopped using it (a couple of years ago), I found myself slacking off with my healthy habits because I didn’t have a number to keep me in check. So now I find myself in the same cycle, despite my best efforts to the contrary. I still eat fruits and veggies when I can, but I have found myself splurging more and more in terms of eating out.

Over the past few days I have considered giving up the blog for good. I told myself it was because it took up too much of my time. But honestly, it was because I didn’t want to blog about what I have eaten over the past couple of weeks, nor did I want to confess that this week is the first time in about two  weeks that I have done consistent exercise. These past few weeks have taught me that my issues with food and weight will always be a constant struggle for me.

I have come up with an idea that will give me some accountability in the weight department. I can’t take credit for this idea though. I got the idea from Tina’s blog. She is kind of a role model. I love how self-confident she is and how far she has come in terms of her disordered ideas surrounding food. I admire her a lot.

So I will start weighing myself this weekend. However, the catch is that I will not look at the numbers at all. I will have my husband look at the scale. Every week, he can tell me whether I have lost, gained, or maintained. I think this is a great compromise. This way, I do not obsess about the actual numbers and hopefully, I will start to like my body regardless of what the numbers are. But this method will still allow me to ensure that the scale is actually going in the right direction.

I am trying to tell myself that a couple of weeks without consistent exercise and a couple of dinners out does not mean I have gained weight . . . at least not the ten pounds I have been envisioning. I have still eaten somewhat healthy most of the time. I just have a tremendous amount of guilt when it comes to food and exercise. Above all else (even weight), this is what I would like to work on the most. I know that if I don’t develop a better relationship with food, then my weight loss will most likely not be permanent. Not to mention the fact that I will still be unhappy with myself even when I reach my “happy weight.”

I am glad that I decided not to quit this blog. The blogging community has provided me with a lot of support lately and I would hate to give that up. Also, I think the fact that I post most of what I eat helps me be a healthier person. There have been lots of times where I intentionally added extra veggies to my meals because I knew I would be posting them online later. This blog is an added way to hold me accountable. I just have to realize that no one is judging me if I have an occasional hamburger and fries. I have realized that no one can possibly judge me harsher than I judge myself.

I appreciate all of the readers who follow my blog and I appreciate you sticking with me through the ramblings of this post. I plan on doing a little baking and/or cooking later this week and I can’t wait to share the results with you. I realize that I have so many cookbooks and I barely use any of them. I just like looking at all of the pictures of the food. :)

So how do you hold yourself accountable? Do you feel any guilt regarding food . . . or even posting pictures of food that may not be considered all that healthy?

Goals for 2011

I don’t like the word “resolution” when it comes to the new year. Let’s face it, you resolve to do something and the resolution gets thrown out the window by the second week of January. There are several things I would like to accomplish in the next year. This year has been a pretty good year (I did start my blog this year, after all). But I have a feeling that next year will be even better. :)

1) Control sugar cravings. I am all for having things in moderation. But lately, my sweet tooth has gotten a bit out of control. I am trying to lose weight and I need to eat foods that are more nutritious. Plus, when I start to eat something sweet I have a hard time stopping. Maybe it would be nice to work on that as well. :)

2) Eat more veggies (and try new things). I have a hard time fitting veggies into my diet. Fruits are easier (maybe because they are sweet). I also didn’t grow up eating fresh veggies (or many veggies at all), so it can be hard to step out of my comfort zone. This year, I did try some new veggies for the first time: I tried fresh green beans, roasted asparagus, and even a rutabega! Now I just have to keep that momentum going.

roasted green beans

3) Push myself in my workouts (try new ones). I get bored easily with my workouts. That happens when you do the same workout over and over again. I need to try new workouts and more importantly than that, I need to try workouts that will challenge me. I haven’t done level 2 of 30 day shred since the first time I tried it. I think it’s because part of me doesn’t want to fail at a tougher workout. I want to push myself and really see what my body can do.

4) Travel more. My husband and I did hardly any travelling this year. There was a trip that we took to Los Angeles for my birthday in May. As fun as that was, I have been to Los Angeles about five times. I would like to go somewhere new, maybe Italy. That may be a bit optimistic, but we will see. My husband and I are determined not to use credit cards EVER, so the only way we will go on a trip is to save enough money for it. We do have a plan. I want to go to Italy very badly, but if we don’t save up enough money for that, I’m sure we will go somewhere else that is exciting. And to be honest, this may be the last year we are able to take a nice trip without having to worry about a baby. :)

5) Run (or walk) Peachtree Road Race (10K). Corey and I did this race in July of this year. It was our first time and I had a great time. Even though we finished, I really dragged through the race and had an awful time. I am not the fastest runner at ALL, but the reason I dragged was due to lack of training and improper nutrition. I haven’t been running much lately, but I intend to change that. I have had some issues with my knees this year, so this goal is contingent upon how my body reacts to running. I plan on downloading the Couch to 10K app to ease back into it.

at the starting line for my first (and only) 10K!

6) Do 20 real push-ups. I can’t do even one real push-up. I can barely do 20 “fake” push-ups. But I intend to build up my arm strength and change this. I want to feel empowered next year!

7) Cut back on T.V. Caitlin had an awesome post yesterday about how much TV she watches and why she wants to cut back on it. My husband and I DVR so many things and sometimes it seems that catching up on the DVR is more important than spending time with each other. There are some nights in which we need to cut off the TV and just talk to each other . . . or maybe read. I haven’t decided which. ;) But seriously, I want to improve my relationship with my husband in the upcoming year and I think this is a great place to start.

8) Improve my photography on my blog. Believe it or not, my pictures have improved dramatically since I started the blog in August. But I want to improve upon them even further. Maybe a new camera for my birthday in May would help. ;)

9) Take cooking classes. I am not a great cook. I like it fast and I like it easy. I also lack creativity, as well as technical skill. I would love to discover new recipes and new ways to cook. Plus, it would be a great way to spend time with Corey that doesn’t involve the television.

10) Learn to like myself. Okay, maybe this one should have been first. But I guess I’m saving the best for last. :) I don’t like myself. There, I said it. I realized today while my husband and I were shopping, that I don’t even like looking at myself in the mirror. I actually avoid it. I had gotten better at it, but I find that lately I use the “f” word more and more. I also negate every single compliment that my husband gives me, whether it’s about my appearance or not. Yes, I am trying to lose weight. But I have realized that if I don’t start to accept myself for who I am, then the weight will just creep back on. It happened before and it can happen again. But if I start to like myself again, then maybe once I lose weight I will actually be satisfied. Last time I reached my goal weight, I kept wanting to lose more and more. Looking back, I know that I was dependent on the number on the scale to make me happy. Once I realize that my happiness isn’t contingent on the number on the scale, then I will probably be a lot happier.

I suppose those goals will do for now. What are your goals for 2011?

Out with the Old

After all the sugar and junk food I consumed this weekend, I was determined to get back on track as soon as possible. And I believe I succeeded. :)

For breakfast, I created a deliciously filling (and nutritious) dish. I have been craving rice pudding for a while. I have talked before about the fact that I detest oatmeal. Most mornings I will eat eggs and bacon for breakfast. As much as I love that breakfast, it doesn’t fill me up for very long . . . plus, it can get boring after a while. So I decided to make a dish out of brown rice that was sure to be nutritious and filling.

Rice Pudding (serves 1)

1 cup cooked brown rice
3/4 cup skim milk (or milk of your choice)
1 tablespoon maple syrup
1/4 c. chopped walnuts
1/4 tsp. cinnamon
1/8 tsp. nutmeg
dash of vanilla extract

Mix all ingredients together and bring to a boil. Reduce heat and cook on low (stirring frequently) until thick and creamy, about 5-7 minutes.

My husband went to get a haircut this morning and on his way back, he surprised me with a Starbucks Gingerbread Latte. How sweet is that? I didn’t even think they would have them past Christmas. And he knows exactly how I like it, which shows he has been paying attention. ;)

After breakfast (which filled me up for hours), my husband and I decided that the house was in desperate need of cleaning. I am so glad that my husband and I don’t have to be at work again until next Monday. Today, we declared it “cleaning day.”

We have gone through every single room and every single drawer. We made a trash pile and a donate pile. Anything that I know I did not use or need, I put in one of those piles.

 

This is the donate pile!

 

I feel like this cleaning was a great way to declutter not only my house, but my life. Believe it or not, I have clothes that are too big or too small. I decided to make it my mission to only keep clothes that actually fit.

These are pants that are a size 9. At one time, these were my favorite pants. However, I haven’t been able to fit into them in roughly five years. I am trying to lose weight, so I kept them for the occasion when I would fit into them again. Then I realized that these pants were also a reminder. They were a reminder of a time when I lost weight by eating under 1000 calories a day and exercising constantly. Do I really need a reminder of that time in my life?

Hopefully, there will come a time when I am a size 9 again. But if (and when) that time comes, I will buy new pants that are a symbol of my new healthy lifestyle.

I had breakfast around 10:00, so I didn’t actually get hungry until after 2:00. I was also quite busy cleaning. Since I wasn’t starving, I still had to force myself to eat something. I ended up with a simple plate of whole wheat pasta, some pasta sauce, and cooked chicken.

I must have been hungrier than I thought because I ate every bite!

The rest of the afternoon was spent with more cleaning. Corey had plans to have dinner with a friend, so I used that time to work out, enjoy watching TV shows (like American Dad) that he doesn’t like, and of course . . . more cleaning. I actually tried to tell myself that as a “reward” for cleaning, I didn’t have to work out. Every time I tried to make that excuse, I rejected it.

My body was craving a work out and cleaning just didn’t cut it. I hadn’t done a strenuous workout in about a week. If I made excuses why I didn’t have to work out today, I would do the same thing tomorrow . . . and the next day, and so on. Operation: Get Back on Track required some exercise, even if it wasn’t a full hour. I ended up working out for about 40 minutes, which made me feel great. I did a couple of Exercise TV On Demand workouts. I did Jillian Michaels’ Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism and Kim Kardashian’s Ab Sculpt workout. It was a first for the Kim Kardashian ab workout and I will definitely be doing it again. It was an awesome mix of cardio moved and floor work.

During our afternoon of cleaning, my husband and I made a big pot of chili. It simmered on the stove for roughly two hours. Everyone knows that the longer chili simmers, the better it tastes. After my workout, I had a big bowl of chili.

I also had a buttered piece of organic multigrain bread. The dinner was delicious!

Now it’s time to relax a little and finish up our cleaning. We are almost finished and we would like to get it done today so that we don’t have to worry about it for the rest of our break. Good night everyone!

Operation: Get Back on Track

After this weekend’s sugar binge, I had to start today on the right track. I know that I have to force myself to start eating better again. The fact that I haven’t worked out since last Thursday is not helping. :( So this week will officially be Operation: Get Back on Track. Catchy name, yes?

I started the day with a healthy breakfast of eggs, all natural bacon, cheese, and 365 Organic Mighty Multigrain bread. Of course, I couldn’t forget the hot sauce. ;)

This breakfast was tasty, filling, and healthy. Loved it!

I continued my healthy eating at lunch. I had Jason’s Deli (I LOVE this place!). I had half a whole grain wrap with marinated chicken, sautéed onions and peppers, and low-fat honey mustard.

I had some of their delicious Southwest Chicken Chili with my wrap.

This evening, when I got home the last thing I felt like doing was working out. I was tired from work and just tired in general. But I remember a good point that Julie made recently. There are 168 hours in a week. Seven hours dedicated to exercise is really not that much in the grand scheme of things. So I did a (very intense) 40 minute strength training workout by Exercise On Demand, followed by 20 minutes on the elliptical. I felt so much better after the workout! I am going to repeat this to myself when I am not motivated to work out.

After my workout, I played with my dog a bit and my husband made a delicious dinner: whole wheat pasta with organic pasta sauce and some cooked chicken breast as well. Yummy!

The highlight of my day? Receiving my very first Christmas gift, courtesy of Amazon. My very good friend, Luke sent me a few items off my Amazon wish list. This was a total surprise, which made it even better!

In the package was Seduced by Bacon: recipes an lore about American’s favorite indulgence, Pumpkin: a super food, for all 12 months of the year, and A Reliable Wife. I have to admit that when I saw the books about pumpkin and bacon, I was drooling a little. I can’t wait to go through all the recipes! And the third one, A Reliable Wife, will be perfect reading material for my upcoming trip to Alabama to visit Corey’s family. Thanks Luke! :)

It occurred to me today that it is going to be difficult to schedule in time for working out this week. Difficult, but not impossible. There are a million things to do in the days leading up to Christmas. There are last minute gifts to buy, presents to wrap, baking to be done, an oven that needs replacing, and of course I will have to pack for a trip to Alabama to visit my husband’s family.

With all of these items on my to-do list, the stress is going to be higher than ever. I will probably feel like skipping workouts to do other things (or just relax and watch TV) and I will probably feel the urge to binge on sweet snacks. I need to focus on my goal of losing weight and remember how incredible working out makes me feel. I may not be able to lose very much weight this holiday season, but I can certainly do my best to maintain it. And if I stay active, maybe I won’t feel so guilty if I have an extra cookie (or four). :)

How are you planning on staying fit this holiday season?

Losing weight the cold way

Last night, I was watching TV and I saw something interesting on ABC news or dateline or one of those shows. There was an author (Tim Ferris, I believe) who stated that he believed people could lose weight in cold weather.

Breakfast: the LAST of my Pumpkin Pancakes :(

But he wasn’t just talking about any cold weather . . . he was talking about purposefully taking walks and exposing yourself to below freezing temperatures to speed up your metabolism. During the show, he and the reporter actually walked outside in below freezing weather without a coat. How crazy is that?

Delicious lunch: spinach salad with baked chicken strips, a hard boiled egg, half a green pepper, and some homemade Italian vinaigrette

During the interview, he also said that nutrionists and registered dieticiand are giving incorrect information. Apparently, the calories in and calories out formula is “wrong.”

I guess he got this idea from Michael Phelps, who eats about 12,000 calories a day. This guy believed that his ability to stay fit and toned was due to the fact that he swam in cool water. Maybe it was because he swims about eight hours a day?

Very filling dinner: brown rice, a hamburger patty that I cooked, some corn, and green beans that I roasted with olive oil and Cajun seasoning. I also added some ketchup and mustard to this bowl. :)

Now I have heard that if you’re colder your metabolism naturally speeds up. But this just seems like another “quick fix” to me. The man who was in the interview stated that he lost 30 pounds in 6 weeks. I’m not sure if the cold was the only factor, but I know that I don’t want to be freezing cold in order to lose weight.

What happened to just eating healthy and being more active?

What do you think of this idea? Do you think that weight loss is about thermodynamics and not about calories in vs. calories out?

Movin’ On Up

I have been feeling a little bored with my workouts lately. Unfortunately, Comcast does not have Jackie Warner Personal Circuit Training on demand anymore. So I have been doing Jillian Michaels 30 day shred.

I used to do 30 day shred on a regular basis. But alas, I stopped. In the last couple of months, I have picked it up again. Recently, I realized that if you have the workouts memorized and you are going through the motions, then it may be time to mix it up.

I have been on Level 1 for a while. All week, I have just known it was time to switch it up and go to Level 2. I was nervous though. I always am when I try a new workout . . . even though I once did Level 2 on a consistent basis. I just don’t like to fail. Today I did Level 2 for the first time in years. Seriously, it’s really been that long.

I am so glad I did. For the first time in weeks, I felt like I was getting a great workout. I did not know which exercise was next, so that kept me on my toes. Plus, I really, really felt the strain in my muscles. New workouts are awesome! Maybe that is why my weight loss has stalled. I need to start pushing myself in my workouts and switching things up every so often.

Of course, after my workout I felt light-headed and I felt like I was on the verge of a migraine from overexertion. And that’s when I remembered why I don’t like working out that hard. Overexertion migraines kind of suck. But I’m not going to let that stop me. In a few days, I will do level 2 again. I loved it! :)

Off Track

Yesterday was kind of rough. It started out good enough. Corey and I went to Taste of Atlanta and had a really good time trying out some new foods and restaurants.

Here are some pictures . . .

Feta Stuffed Gyro Roll - Best thing ever! So good.

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spicy thai chicken wrap that came from an organic fast food place. So good!

Mmm . . . tasty wrap.

Corey in line for some delicious steak. Yummy!

Is it too hot for coffee? Not if it's free!

organic pumpkin ice cream . . . delicious!

Free samples of Krispy Kreme totally made Corey's day!

Eating some red velvet pancakes . . . they were kind of disappointing.

So we had a good time, tasting food and walking around. Of course, we have more coupons and business cards for restaurants than we ever thought we could have.

Last night, however, was kind of rough. I feel kind of silly, but Corey went on another business trip and I did not handle it well. I’m not sure why this one hit me so hard. Corey goes out of town frequently for business. If I had a nickel for every time he went out of town in the four years we have been together, then I would be a very wealthy woman. For some reason, I felt particularly sad and very lonely about the fact that he was gone. And I did something I haven’t done in a long time. I used food to ease my pain. I binged.

Corey and I had gotten a package of sugar cookies at Taste of Atlanta, so I had quite a few cookies .

 

this cookie times six

I did not get hungry until kind of late, but when I did I ordered a 20 piece order o spicy wings from Papa John’s. I did not take a picture because I was filled with shame. :( But I ate every single wing. I would have ordered a pizza, but I was afraid that the cheese would give me a migraine (as it has been known to do). I felt so guilty about my binge. I felt sick to my stomach from so much food and I felt like I had undone the past several months of healthy eating.

I had to remind myself that it’s important to forgive myself for these mistakes. I also know that yesterday’s binge is not going to cause me to gain back all the fifteen pounds I have lost so far. What I need to do is recognize why I felt the urge to eat and try to do other things to deal with my anxieties about being alone. I also know that today is a new day and I had the ability to get back on track as soon as possible. And I did . . .

Breakfast was a whole wheat bagel (fresh from the Farmer’s Market) with some Trader Joe’s pumpkin cream cheese. I may have to reevaluate my opinion of Trader Joe’s. This stuff is freaking awesome!

Yes, my bagel is on the top to a tupperware container. Because that's just how I roll.

I had breakfast a little late because I woke up with no appetite. I’m sure that was due to last night’s overeating. So that was my whole breakfast and I did not get hungry until lunch.

Lunch was some leftover pasta from last week. I love leftovers! It was simple whole wheat pasta, 365 organic pasta sauce, and some cooked chicken breast.

wholesome goodness

Snack was unpictured pretzels with almond butter. This is quickly becoming my favorite go-to snack.

The day ended on an excellent note, much better than yesterday that’s for sure. After work, I picked up Callie from doggy day care and hurried home to go for a run. I wasn’t going to take Callie with me because I knew she would be exhausted from her day, but I kind of wanted some company on my walk since my husband usually accompanies us. It was really nice bonding time with her. We only jogged for about a mile because it looked like it might rain. I’m still working on the C25K program and easing back into the running thing and that was fine with me. When I got home, I did 30 minutes on the elliptical to end my workout. I really pushed myself on the elliptical and I felt great (if not a little sore).

Dinner was an awesome taco salad with homemade seasoning.

In this salad I had seasoned meat, spinach, cheese, tortilla chips, some salsa and my first ever guacamole attempt. I think the avocado I picked was a little over ripe, but it was still good. This is the first time I have ever picked out an avocado for myself. Does anyone have any tips for picking out a good avocado?

Now that I have eaten and exercised, I feel kind of like Callie.

Utterly exhausted

I feel so much better than yesterday. I am back on track with my eating and I had a great workout. I am trying not to let yesterday get me down too much. I miss Corey like crazy, but I will feel worse if I let one day’s binge turn into five days. I feel proud of myself that I was able to get back on track so easily.